I feel depressed and bored. Like a looser. Seems like I only write in here when I'm feeling this way, lately. Every so often I look out the window and think: New York City! There it is. And here I am. Sitting on this couch. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Am big fat looser. Should be out there living life. Also, am not working. Ugh ugh ugh.